Alison's Predictions, a Year End Re-cap, and other musings...

For some reason, my dear friend Alison has always been eerily accurate with my weight related matters. I am a large person, if you have not yet surmised, yet Alison can tell the difference between a 3 lb loss and a 5 lb loss with me. For a while, I didn't have a scale, and I would just ask Alison to let me know weekly how much I had lost, and she was always right! By the time I got to a scale, I would confirm that she was correct. Perhaps Alison should leave her career as a recruiter and join the circus to guess people's age and weight. There may just be a future for her in that...

If you are a Phatband Phollower, and of course you are, you will recall that Alison (and Stephanie) won the original prediction contest (prizes pending) regarding the amount of weight I would lose in my pre-op liquid diet month. Alison also suggested at that time, that by the end of the year, I would be down 75-80 lbs. With one day left in the year, I'm now down 2 more lbs to a total of 74 lbs. I may or may not lose that additional 1-6 lbs between today and tomorrow, but either way, that is pretty close!

One of the presents I got for D this year was a trip to Key West (and Ft. Lauderdale and South Beach). We celebrated my 30th birthday there in September '06, and we had a blast. I'm looking forward to seeing the difference that 75-80 lbs makes for walking around, etc, on vacation. I signed us up for a snorkeling adventure that I never would have attempted with 75 more lbs of me, so this is exciting! I made sure every place we stayed had lots of fun active things to do, which was not a priority for me during our last trip. ;-)

I know I have so much more to lose, but this first 74 lbs has made me feel human again. I don't have to plan my life around my weight, and that change is profound. I used to be afraid of going to unknown restaurants because what if the booths were too restrictive, I didn't want to make plans to go shopping (still don't because I h8 shopping) or to museums because my back hurt from walking or standing for more than a minute (no exaggeration). At work, at some facilities I have to walk long distances between meetings, and I had to make sure I gave myself enough time between meetings to find a place to rest my back without walking the entire distance straight through. I had a back injury from a car accident that never healed properly, and the extra weight just made it impossible to do the most basic things in life.

My restrictions and my weight gain fueled each other, and the more my back hurt, the less I could move, and the more I gained, and the even less I could move, and so on. The cycle was never ending until now. The cycle has ended. A little while ago, I got separated from my friends at church and I didn't have my cell phone on me, so I walked home 3-4 miles, uphill at least 75% of the way. I *never* would have been able to do that before.

This is the last day of the phattest year of my life. Tomorrow, I have no resolutions (other than to be better about carrying my cell phone), as the changes I want to make in my life are already underway. I'm hoping/planning this next year, and the years to follow will be the healthiest years of my life.

Enjoy the end of 2007, and I'll chat with you all in 2008!

KC

Beef Welling-Yum!

Christmas dinner was delicious, I must say. It bothered me a little bit because it was richer than what I'm used to now, but it sure was good! I definitely need a fill, as I had no problem eating an 8oz fillet, asparagus and potatoes. Whatever damage I may have done on Christmas or Christmas Eve, however, is all forgotten, as my bronchitis has turned into pneumonia, and I have a bit of a stomach bug on top. I weighed myself this morning (as any dieter would do after a flu), and I was still down 72. I bet that wouldn't have been the case yesterday morning. ;-)

Be well!

KC

Not much going on...

Hello,

I know it's been a few days since I wrote so I thought I would check in, but not much is new over here! The holiday season isn't very difficult for me because I do not give into temptations for sweets, but I think just having a break from my routine is the challenging part... Too many days off in a row feel like weekend days, which starts to feel like a vacation, which makes me think I don't have to be as good as I usually am. I had popcorn last night (not reduced fat) and a half of a salami sub. I wouldn't normally eat those things. I also had a half of a piece of lemon bread, but in my defense, I made 12 loaves, and I wasn't going to give them out without trying it first!

Today is another day of baking - I'm making a cheesecake, mint brownies (Dorandi family tradition), and mincemeat fold overs (Carroll family tradition). Tomorrow night, we are having an Italian Christmas Eve at our house. Ravioli's, meatballs, braciole, an anchovy pasta dish that Dennis is making, and roast beef. They don't even usually serve potatoes with the roast beef - they have it with the pasta and red sauce. Whaaaaaaaat? This little Irish girl is definitely making potatoes and gravy as a side. Meat is pointless without a potato product! ;-)

I bought this Stonewall Kitchen Wasabe & Horseradish spread that I want to use as a base for a roasted garlic crust for the roast. The little Italian girl is horrified at this concept, however, because how is that going to go with ravioli's? (The little Irish girl is wondering how any roast beef goes with ravioli's to begin with...) So apparently, I'm making a roast, half crusted and half plain.

Christmas day shouldn't be as much of a challenge. I'm making Beef Wellington, but I couldn't bring myself to use pate because of the whole cruelty to animals thing, so I'm using pesto instead, and I think it's going to be fabulous! I was going to make twice baked potatoes as well, but we are visiting my grandmother for brunch on Christmas morning, and I'm doing the cooking for that as well, so I don't want to have to rush around so much that I don't enjoy the day. Instead, I will just make the filling to twice baked potatoes with cheese and sour cream, and I may bake the mashed potatoes in the oven briefly to give it that crisp texture on top. Other than that, we're having asparagus with Bearnaise sauce, corn, bread...and that's really it. I don't think the menu will be very challenging, but I do think it will be delicious!

I haven't gained any weight since I last wrote, and I haven't lost any either. My appetite is definitely bigger than it was before, and I'm looking forward to my fill on 1/2. If I can make it to then without gaining any weight, I'll be happy. If I lose more on top of it, even better.

Happy Holidays!

KC

No fill for you

I have been sick this week, so I had to reschedule my fill for 1/2. They like you to be healthy when you have a fill because for several days after, all you can have are liquids and mushies, and it's not always the best time to fight off an illness. It's a bummer, but I'll make it. I haven't lost anything since last Friday, and I may not lose anything else until I get a fill, but we will soon find out.

I'm not as hungry this week as I was last week, and I've been staying between 1000 - 1300 calories per day. I'm not burning as many calories as I normally do either because I've just been sitting in front of the TV each night. This sickness is cramping my style, but I see my MD today, so hopefully that will get me on the road to recovery.

I was looking forward to being freshly filled before the holidays, but I'll be fine without it. I'm lucky that sweets aren't a big thing for me, because this is the season for sweets!

Have a great day!

KC

Finally!

The scale moved, and I lost 2 more lbs. Now I'm at 72, and that much closer to 75! I would love to get to 75 by Christmas - what a nice gift to self! I don't want to jinx it though... :) For the past two months, I have averaged a 2.8 lb loss per week, which is still above the 1-2 recommended, but it's certainly still within a healthy range.

I have a fill on Monday, just in time for the holidays, and I see my nutritionist on Wednesday. I can't believe how fast time is flying! I'm relieved knowing I'm going into this holiday week with a fill, and even though I'll be on solids by the weekend, I'll only be able to eat very small portions. I should get a fill before every holiday! :)

Have a great weekend!

KC

More Tales from the Scale

I haven't lost anything since I got down to 70 over a week ago! I know it's because I've finally been able to eat the amounts I was supposed to be eating all along, but this is the longest I have gone without a loss. 8 days...

Thankfully, I have my next fill on Monday, and I think that will be a great help, but I would really like to lose something between now and then.

I meet with my nutritionist on Tuesday, so then we can talk about a new amount of calories that I should be taking in each day. I'm going to guess 1200-1400, but we will see!

In the mean time, I am still logging everything I eat on fitday.com.

Last night, I ordered a grilled chicken salad for dinner, and I was able to eat the whole thing! I never would have been able to eat even half of it recently. I think six weeks between fills is too long. Other MDs give fills every 2 weeks. I know my MD is more concerned about keeping me healthy than a rapid weight loss, but right now, it just seems like too much time has passed.

I can't believe there are only 9 shopping days until Christmas!!

Have a great day!

KC

Phatso

I am 5 weeks out from my first fill, and I'm getting hungrier by the minute. The MD warned me that weeks five and six are always tough, and by the time I get my next fill, I would be *very* ready for it. He was right! I have had no problem hitting the calorie intake I never could before. The last five days, I have eaten between 1500-1700 (supposed to be 1600) each day.

I know that is what I am supposed to be eating for now, technically, but because I was used to eating more like 800-1200 (and often 600), I'm not losing now. My body just needs to get adjusted to this new calorie intake, and by the time it does, I will be having my next fill and back on liquids! :)

D and I were really hungry this morning, and we stopped at Burger King on our way to work. I very rarely eat fast food because it's a waste of calories, and not to mention unhealthy, but I did, and my breakfast was 838 calories! I will have to really watch what I have for lunch and dinner!

***
As you may have seen on the news, last week a tractor trailer exploded in Everette, destroying several cars and 3 apartment buildings. One of the families affected by this tragedy works at one of the hospitals in the system I work for. Since D and I have two homes, we decided to donate the use of the one closest to Boston to this family. I don't share this to pat ourselves on the back - I share this because I had a really interesting experience preparing the house for their arrival.

My boss allowed me to take Friday as a "free" day off to prepare my home, as I only learned Thursday night that they would be moving in on Sunday! We had not stayed in that house in several weeks. Not only did the entire house need to be thoroughly cleaned from top to bottom, D and I needed to sort through all of our things to decide what to leave, what to move to NH, what to donate and what to dispose of.

When we moved to NH, we each brought a carry-on bag of clothing, and that was IT! Everything we own was in this house, so we basically had two days to prepare to move, and also to clean the entire house, and Darcy had to work on Friday, so one of the two days was just me.

I have never been a lazy person, but when you are so completely out of shape, you just can't do that much. Backs hurt, knees ache, etc... Before I started losing weight, if I had a lot of housework to do, I would do it in shifts. I could never do as much as I wanted to. On Friday and Saturday, I was on my feet non stop: lifting things, getting on my hands and knees to clean, running up and down stairs over and over - each day was 10-12 hours of physical labor, and I accomplished a TON! I didn't even know I would physically be able to do all that I did until I actually did it!

70 lbs is a lot of weight to lose, but I still have so much more to lose...I had such ease in getting everything done...I can't imagine how it will get any better when I lose more, but I'm anxious to see! If the next 70 I lose has as dramatic of an impact on me as the first 70, I pity the people around me. I think I will be out of control.

We have such a feeling of accomplishment, and when this family moves on, the house will be ready to sell, and we'll only need to pack up dishes, etc, and decorations. That's the easy part...Let's just hope the market picks up between now and then!

Have a great day!

KC

Seventy!

For some reason, my scale worked this morning, and I found out that I lost 70 lbs! Right on!

Yesterday, I ate more than I normally would because I was a bit snowed in and it seemed like the thing to do, so it only figures that I had a 2 lb loss today. It's funny how that happens, but I'm not complaining! :)

I'm hoping to hit 75 within the next two weeks, which is my second milestone.

Today is my 2 month anniversary of the surgery (ish) and 3 month anniversary of the liquid diet: 70 lbs in 3 months is more than I could have hoped for. I'm thrilled with the decision I made to take control of my life and weight loss, and I am excited for the months and years to come.

Have a great day all!

KC

Tales from the Scale

Unfortunately, my scale needs a new battery, and it's a lithium watch type battery, which I don't have hanging around the house, and I haven't been able to weigh myself for two days now.

The last time I weighed myself was Saturday morning, and I was down 1 more lb to 68, so that is a good thing, but I would really like to know if I have lost any more!

I still am not eating the amount I am supposed to, but I must say - this whole thing is much easier than I had ever thought it would be. One of my biggest problems with diets in the past was if I ate something I wasn't "supposed" to, it would send me down a spiral of failure and I would ultimately end up going off my diet.

With the lap band, I feel like I don't have a choice - I'm going to lose weight, and I'm going to stay on track. There are no foods I'm not supposed to have. In general, I make very healthy choices, but yesterday I decided to have half a piece of apple pie, and I don't feel at all guilty about that. When I observe the eating habits of healthy people, it's not that they never have anything bad, but they certainly don't feel the need to consume everything in sight because of their guilt over a few pieces of pizza they had.

Anyway, I guess that guilt is gone for me. It's probably because I know that with my hunger in check, I can make the right choices. When I have something that it's healthy, it's because I'm having a treat, not falling off the wagon.

This is an interesting little journey....

:)

KC

Get down, Get down

So I am down the 4 I was up, plus another 2 for a total of 67. Right on! 3 more away from 70! Also, my BMI (body mass index) is now down 10 points! Tonight I am going to the gym with Steph and Carolyn - finally! I'm hoping D will join us if she's feeling up to it too.

XO

Thanksfattening

I have learned that even with my shiny new lap band, I am not immune to gaining weight over the holidays. ;O) I was up 4 lbs today! I had been so busy cooking and entertaining, that I had not entered my daily calories into fitday.com. I caught up on the past few days this morning, and I was averaging 1900 calories the past few days. Normally, if I did not have a lap band, that would be on the low end of what an adult female should eat in one day, so it's not a huge amount. However, when you compare that to the usual 1100 calories per day I had been eating (almost always unable to reach the 1500-1600 I'm supposed to), it's quite a spike!

At first I wondered how that was even possible, since on normal days, I have to struggle to even get to 1300, but I realized I didn't eat more food than usual, I just ate food that wasn't as healthy. I normally cook everything light, and for Thanksgiving, I didn't. So just eating the meal on Thanksgiving, and then leftovers all day yesterday, even in small quantities brought me to the high calorie realm and into a gain. I also think the gain is due to bloating, since I have had a lot more salt/sodium these past few days then I am used to.

I am not discouraged, and I am sure a few days of being back on track will not only allow me to drop these 4 lbs, but hopefully more as well!

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving!!

KC

A hop, skip and a drop

Today I was down 3 lbs from 2 days ago, to make a total of 65. Normally, I only lose one lb at a time, but 3 at once was a treat! :) 5 lbs until 70!

This should be an interesting week with Thanksgiving and all... I'm making about five different desserts, and it's a good thing I don't like desserts because I'm a good cook!

Actually, I am a good cook, but I'm not the worlds best baker, so this will be tedious work for me. With cooking, you can estimate and make it up as you go. Baking is a science, and I am an artist, and we do not get along. Baked goods do not react well to my added flair. I pity them, and their conformist nature. ;-)

I have tomorrow off, and I will spend the whole day baking and preparing for Thursday. Why do I spend so much time on something I do not like to do and I do not like to eat? Because you gotta give the people what they want! Wish me luck with this endeavor.

KC

And another one...

Today I was down a total of sixty two pounds. I'm eight pounds away from 70, and for some reason, that sounds like a LOT to me. Anything 70 or over sounds like so much more than the amounts I have already lost. I'm not sure why that is, but it's definitely going to be a milestone. (Technically - prize wise - my next "milestone" is 75, and that's now just 13 lbs away!)

I still haven't been doing as well as I should with the calories. Friday I had 1200 and yesterday 920. I am much hungrier in the morning and first half of the day than the second half, so I need to try to eat more from morning to mid afternoon and just have a light dinner.

I made a very succulent port butt yesterday. I massaged onion powder and garlic salt into it, and then seared it and cooked it in the crock pot with pearl onions, potatoes and beef and chicken bouillon all day. The meat just fell right off the bone, and it was SO tender. Yum - try it! So easy and SO good.

XO

KC

Chipping away

I'm down 61 lbs today. The past 3 weeks, I've been on the track of losing 3-4 lbs each week, which is double what I am supposed to be doing. (I'm not complaining!)

I am still struggling getting enough calories in. Yesterday I was at 1000, and the day before 1375. I'll keep plugging away!

I haven't been to the gym all week: Monday was a holiday, Tuesday I didn't get home until 9, Wednesday I was exhausted because I had a hard time sleeping on Tuesday night, but Thursday is a new day, and I'm ready to hit the gym tonight!

Steph and Carolyn: you said you were joining this week! Where are you???

That's all for now; have a great day!

KC

977

Yesterday I had 977 calories. I had the day off and I was out and about and Christmas shopping and running errands, and I just ate when I was hungry, and I landed at 977. Getting to 1500-1600 per day is going to be a big struggle it seems. Who would have thought that I would ever say that?!

Today I am going to try harder to reach 1500. It would probably be a lot easier to do if I didn't make my food so healthy. ;-/ Yesterday I bought myself a new crock pot, and I made corned beef, which I looooooove, though I know it's disgusting. I had two choices: one cut was 19 fat grams per serving, and the other was 5. I knew that for corned beef to only have 5 grams of fat in it, it was going to be some kind of shoe leather, but I chose that one, and I was right. It still has (kind of) that corned beef taste, but it's dry and tough. If I picked the fattier one, I probably would have been closer to my goal of 1500 calories yesterday, and I may have even lost weight in addition to actually enjoying my meal. :)

Now I know that I should not reach my calorie goal by eating unhealthy foods...I'm just saying it would be easier to get there because I can eat smaller volume and get there sooner. With healthy foods, it takes a lot!

Wish me luck today!

KC

60 lbs gone forever!

I like that I can say that because when I dieted in the past, I always knew deep down that I would probably regain the weight, even though I really hoped I wouldn't. With this band, it's a new chapter in my life, and the weight I lose is weight I lose forever.

Yesterday I ate 1539 calories, and today I was not only down the water weight I was up yesterday, but I was also down an additional 2 lbs, to make a total of 60!

It's funny that eating more makes me lose weight, but I get it because my body must have been in starvation mode. I just don't want to get used to eating this much, and then feel deprived when I get down to 1200, but I'm sure I'll be just fine. I'll be smaller then anyway.

Today is a holiday, so I have it off. The boat ride was a blast yesterday, and I'm hoping I will use today to finish my house cleaning and do some more Christmas shopping, but I kind of want to do something fun too. We shall see...

75 lbs is my next milestone goal (when I get myself a prize), and I wonder when I'll hit it.

So far, I lost 35 lbs before surgery, 22 in the month after the surgery, and 3 in the week following. I'm really only supposed to lose 2 lbs each week, so at that rate, it would be around the end of the year. That would be great!

Have a great day!

KC

Calories per day

As I mentioned, I started tracking my calories per day on fitday.com, in an effort to reach the 1500-1600 calories per day I am supposed to be consuming. Yesterday I reached 1250, and it was an effort. Today I will try harder, if I can. This morning, I was up a few lbs on the scale. I know it's just water weight, and that happens from time to time, and I'm always fine the next day, but I can't say that I like it. I realize, if I increase my daily intake from 600-800 to 1500-1600, it will be natural to gain a few lbs before I start losing again, but again, I don't have to like it!

Today we are going on the last boat ride of the season. I am really looking forward to that! We set sail at noon, so I want to finish cleaning the house and get to the gym (if there's time) first.

I added a new recipe to lowphatcooking.blogspot.com - it is yummy and vegilicious! Check it out! Thank you, BS, for inspiring this creation!

I think that's it for now. Have a wonderful day!

KC

Smart Ones

Now that I have started to eat soft foods, I am noticing I am getting full faster than I was before my fill. I realize this could change soon, since I am not really supposed to feel the effects from one fill, but it's interesting! I feel like I have a preview of my future when I finally get to the right restriction point.

I had a smart ones weight watcher meal for lunch. I used to think those things were the biggest joke. Of course you can eat whatever you want if it's the size of a thimble! When I was dieting, if I had a Lean Cuisine or a Smart Ones for lunch, I always had to have snacks with it to try to get full. I probably could have eaten 10 of them at a time if I wasn't concerned with the calories.

Today, I couldn't finish my meal! I tried, and I got SO full. I had to eat it in two sittings. It is going to be tough getting to 1500-1600 calories per day if I get full this fast, but again, I don't think my appetite will stay like this. If it did, I probably wouldn't need any more fills!

In an effort to consciously raise my daily caloric intake, I have registered on fitday.com - it's cool - it tracks everything you eat! It also tracks your exercise and your weight loss, etc... I recommend it.

It's time to go to the grocery store! I look forward to planning meals with real food for this coming week!

KC

Oh yeah

And I'm still down 58 lbs. I know these next two are going to be tough because it always takes longer when I'm close to a big number! To cheer myself up, I have included a picture of Bessie (to your right) to show you what 58 lbs looks like.

Not a bad loss!

;-)

Mush it good

Today I am on mushies!

Technically, I was supposed to wait until lunch time today, but I figured breakfast was close enough. I had scrambled eggs.

I am taking my nutritionists advice and having four small meals each day. At 10:15 I had my first lunch, which was a small serving of the chicken casserole I made. I know it's not mashed potatoes, but trust me - it's mushy! At 12:30, I had lunch # 2, same thing, and I am full! I think it's possible I may have started to feel some restriction, but I'm not going to start dancing in the streets quite yet.

It is probably just a result of my new fill, and within a few days, I will probably be back to normal. For now, however, I will enjoy it.

I went to the gym twice yesterday. Once by myself for cardio and tanning, and then later to Hampshire Hills with the girls. We played basketball (I was painfully terrible last night), and then I did laps in the pool. I love doing laps. I can't believe how much more of a cardio work out it is for me than the bike!

I am hoping to hit the gym for a bit this evening as well.

2 days of mushies and then I'm back to normal. Mushies rock compared to liquids, though. Let me tell you... !

:)

Enjoy your day!

KC

Not lovin' the liquids

I have to tell you, after a full month of a liquid diet (with a few delightful exceptions), and then another 2 weeks after surgery, going back to this liquid diet after my first fill is not really fun for me. I didn't mind the diet prior to surgery because I was so focused on being as healthy as possible for surgery, and I didn't mind the diet after surgery because I could hardly get anything down, but after my first fill, I don't really feel any restriction, so I'm sure I could eat something if I wanted to. If I have 5 instant breakfast shakes per day, as I am supposed to, that's 900 calories. I'd rather eat 600 calories of real food! Oh well, I know that in the future, when I do feel restriction, this liquid diet will be necessary. It's not hard for me to do or anything like that, because it's old hat for me, but it's just boring.

Enough of the whining...jeez... you're not reading this to hear me whine!

I'm down another lb to 58 lbs. 2 more lbs and I'll be at 60!

My nutritionist told me yesterday not to freak out when I change my diet to 1500-1600 calories per day, because I will probably go a few weeks without a loss since I've been eating so little, but in the end, it will help me lose faster and healthier. I know that's true, but it's going to be hard!

I think I'll work out even harder and longer to make up for it. We'll see.

Tonight we are going to Hampshire Hills with Steph and Carolyn, so that will be fun! I didn't get to work out yesterday, so I need to get to the gym today!

Have a great day, all!

KC

Fill 'er up

I had my first saline fill last night. It wasn't anything like what I had read about. It was not bad at all. It took a little bit for my MD to find the right spot to inject the saline, but I am tough with that stuff...

I feel no difference at all. My MD said I probably won't feel much of a difference from the first 1-2 fills. Of course, I'm on liquids for the next three days, so it's hard to gauge what I'm comfortable taking in since I'm not eating real food.

My MD said I looked great, and that I was doing a fantastic job! That made me feel good. :)

Today I met with the nutritionist, and she said I should be eating 1500-1600 calories per day at this point. Wow! I had no idea. I've been keeping it to 600-800 calories per day. She told me that for my height and my muscle mass and the amount I'm working out, I really need to take in about double or more what I have been consuming.

I was surprised to hear that. She said that as I lose weight and as the band gets filled, they will reduce the amount I eat bit by bit. It's all part of the process, and I won't lose weight as well if I'm not eating enough at this stage. She wants me to eat four meals each day to get to the 1500-1600.

I was probably eating 3000 calories per day before I started this process, so it's not like it's going to be a huge amount of food for me, but it will be a big adjustment, since I have been eating so much less than that for the past 2 months.

This should be interesting! I will keep you posted.

Have a wonderful day.

KC

Back by popular demand

I don't have as many changes and updates, so I haven't been updating my blog as frequently as I was before. However, the people have spoken! You want to hear from me often, and I can't say I blame you!

Here I am.

D and I went to Hampshire Hills yesterday, and it was sooooo great to work out again. I did 7 miles on the bike, but my foot kept going numb (totally annoying), so I stopped at 7, and then I did free weights and some nautilus and worked on arms/shoulders.

After that, I did laps in the pool, but probably only for about 15 minutes. Talk about a cardiovascular work out! It was harder for me to catch my breath than when I'm on the bike! By far!

After that, we went in the roman tub which felt wonderful and then we just floated in the pool for a while. It was great.

We had a great time at Billy's yesterday afternoon, and a few people mentioned what a difference they can see in me already, and that was very nice. :)

I have not been getting in as many fruits and veggies as I should lately, and that's because I desperately need to go food shopping. I had a salad with my lunch today, which was delicious.

I should have something good for dinner, since I'm back on liquids tomorrow, but we'll see. I made a casserole that I really liked, and it was very easy. I will post the recipe on lowphatcooking.blogspot.com

I think I'll just have that for dinner.

Talk to you soon!
KC

One Month Out

Yesterday was not only a special day because it was my dear father's birthday (Happy Birthday, Dad!!!), it was also the one month anniversary of me and my band. We have grown very close this past month, and I'm looking forward to her getting filled on Tuesday!

I didn't have a chance to weigh myself yesterday, but as of today, I'm down 57 lbs. That's 35 in the 4 weeks pre-surgery, and 22 in the month post surgery. My BMI (body mass index) has gone down 8.5 points total as well.

I don't know what to expect for a loss in the months to come, so I guess we will just see. I want to lose in a healthy way, and that is my top priority.

I haven't worked out in a week, and I miss it! I was sick for much of last week, and I didn't want to push it, but today we are headed back to the gym! We will be working out at Hampshire Hills today. I want to do it all: cardio, weights, basketball, tennis, swimming - you name it. I have really missed it. I kind of even missed doing cardio. I'm sure I'll kick myself for saying that 30 seconds into the exercise bike today, though.

Hopefully D will get up soon, because I want to work out now, so that we are back in time to do some housework and then relax for the Pats V Colts game at 2!

GO PATS!!!!

KC

Protein Bars

I know I'm not supposed to overuse protein bars in place of meals because "real" food is better for me, but they are just so convenient. I have been eating the Zone bars, which I think are fine, even though Alison thinks they taste like compressed saw dust, and she does have a point, but I decided to try the South Beach Diet bars.



I bought the Chocolate Crisp. It has 210 calories, 19g of protein, 5g of fiber, and a ton of vitamins and minerals. I could only get through half of the bar in one sitting - they are filling! The taste isn't phenomenal, but it's not terrible either.



What I don't understand is why protein bars have to be so dry or just so wrong in consistency. Power bars are like melted tootsie roles that are half way back to solid. You can't take a normal bit of them, you have to bite and tear. Cliff bars are kind of okay, but they are still a bit weird and they aren't as good for you as some of the others. Special K protein bars are more of the same...just like the Slim Fast bars and the Atkins bars. I never realized how many protein bars I've tried in my life until just now.



I guess my point is this: is it really food if it's so hard for them to make it taste and feel like food? What in the world is in protein bars? In the South Beach Diet bars, it's a bunch of different soy products, fish gelatin, milk, a few different oils, and the rest is just a bunch of blended up vitamins and minerals.



I suppose I understand why my nutritionist wants me to get my nutrients from real foods that are high in nutrients, rather than some lab room cocktail of stuff that is supposed to be good for me. I do like getting all that protein in just 210 calories, though...



I will keep you posted if I find a magical protein bar.



Today I'm down one more lb to a total of 56. Keep it comin'!



KC

MIA

Good Morning,

I was missing in action for a few days due to a busy weekend, and then a bit of the flu. I am feeling better today, and I'm down another 2 lbs to a total of 55! Unfortunately, it wasn't a stomach flu, or that number would be even bigger! ;-)

A few more days...a few more lbs...I'll take it. Today is four weeks out from my day of surgery, and I've lost 20 lbs. Not bad. This Saturday (and my Dad's birthday!) will be one month out, and maybe I'll be down a bit more by then.

My appetite continues to grow, but still no where near where it was before I started the liquid diet. I probably have the appetite of a thin girl right now. When I observe what they eat, that's about where I am. Next week when I get my fill, I'm hoping to notice a difference. Keeping my appetite as small as I have has been a result of self control, and not physical limitations at this point.

I'm glad I have had the self control, but it will be even nicer to have a physical tool to help me - that is the whole point of this band. I know it takes many people 3 to even 5 fills to really feel a good amount of restriction, and that's okay - I can be patient. Even a little bit of restriction will be a great start.

For the first few days after my fill, each time, I have to go on the liquid diet, and then a day or two of soft foods. I think four weeks on the liquid diet was great for me psychologically because it really helped me to see food in terms of nutrition and health rather than pleasure. Now that I am back eating without restrictions, I get pleasure from food again, but something changed during those four weeks and I just don't see food the same way. The thought of going back on the liquid diet is really no problem for me.

I guess that is all for now. Happy Halloween! I have about 5 huge buckets of candy leftover from the Halloween Party we had Sunday afternoon. Thank God I'm not tempted with sweets!

KC

KC minus 53

I'm down 53 as of today. That was a nice surprise!

I was just thinking, when I was at the gym yesterday, how much more enjoyable the cardio would be if I had a recent loss. That is how I justify doing something I hate so much. I don't know why I love strength training and hate cardio. I love sports, and I don't mind a cardio work out that comes as a result of playing sports. I just hate the mindless peddling or walking/jogging/running or stair stepping...all of it...HATE it! I think I hate it because it's so boring. I also don't like the way it feels.

I love the way it feels when I'm lifting weights and my muscles are shaking because I've overdone it a little bit. I love the pain that comes from lifting a little more than I have or as a result of many reps. I do not like the pain that comes from cardio...the burning in my legs when I'm on too high of a level of the bike for too long... I don't like burning legs.

It's just not my bag. I knooooow it's important and that I will lose weight slower if I don't do it, so I do it, but probably not as much as I should. Since I have added strength training to my work out, I only do 20-25 minutes of cardio each day. In my defense, however, I'm still working my way into a routine, and I still get tired at the gym far sooner than I should.

I need to download music to my iPod - that will help a lot. I also need to get some new movies for my DVD player. I haven't brought that in a while because I ran out of things to watch, and that definitely made cardio less torturous. It did make me bike slower, though, so that's something I need to be mindful of going forward.

I have today off to get a jump start on getting the house ready for the Halloween Party on Sunday. If you saw the blanket of leaves in my yard, you would see my cardio workout has already been laid out for me. Between all that raking and mowing the lawn and running around cleaning, I will definitely have a homemade work out today, but I will at least go to the gym for strength training in addition (and tanning!).

I just started strength training one week ago, but I can already feel a little difference in my muscles. I love it!

Have a great fall day!

KC

Singing in the rain

We made it to choir practice last night, rain and all! It was a great time. Darcy hasn't been in a chorus since she was 9, so she was a little shocked and amused by the warm up exercises involved. It certainly does feel silly to the newcomer.

It was great to sing! I need to move my piano to NH so that we can practice. This session started two months ago, and we need to catch up learning our parts in the songs.

I can't believe I missed the first half of the game last night, but what a game it was! GO SOX!

I made it to the gym yesterday, but only for 45 minutes because I had to rush up to Portsmouth right after. I'm still glad I went. I did legs and about 2 miles on the bike. Today I will have more time to do a proper session. I will do upper body and cardio.

I'm really enjoying my more active lifestyle. I have always had a busy lifestyle, but focusing on getting healthy not only affects my physical health, but my overall health as a person as well.

On the scale front, I weighed myself today, and I haven't lost anything substantial since last week when I hit 50. I know I'm doing the things I am supposed to: eating healthy foods in small portions, drinking lots of water and working out, so there's nothing else I could do at this point.

I know that when you start working out - especially strength training - there is an adjustment period when the muscles you are building weigh more than the weight you are losing, and I think that's what is happening with me. I am getting smaller, and smaller clothes are fitting me better and better, so I'm not worried, but I will keep you posted!

I continue to notice that I can eat more and more. Yesterday I ate 1/4 of a grilled chicken wrap for breakfast, a small serving of chicken with snow peas for lunch, an additional 1/4 of a grilled chicken wrap around 3, as I was hungry again, and a small salad with grilled chicken for dinner at 6:30. By 8 or 9 I was hungry again, but I just ignored it.

My nutritionist said I should be eating and extra 200-300 calories per day if I'm working out. I'm not sure how many calories I am supposed to be eating per day now, but I believe it is 1200. I just added up my calories for yesterday, and it totaled just under 800, so perhaps the problem is that once again I'm not eating enough.

This is a challenge because I don't want to overeat and cause my appetite to grow, but I also want to make sure I'm consuming enough calories to be healthy.

I see my nutritionist in two weeks, so that will be helpful!

KC

Warning: TMI

(That means too much information, Mom.) :)

Last night I made a lasagna full of protein. It is so important for us to get in high amounts of protein each day, but not being able to eat large quantities of food presents a problem. My plan was to pack as much protein in as small of a package as possible. Truly, I made a meatsagna.

It was delicious. You can check out the recipe at: http://www.lowphatcooking.blogspot.com/

I know that most people who have the lap band are not able to eat pasta unless it is cooked very well. I have had pasta in soup with no trouble, so I thought I would be okay.

I had a half of a small piece of lasagna, and I felt fine. A bit full, but fine. A few hours later, I went to bed, and I woke up at 11 with some discomfort, but I fell back asleep. At midnight, I woke up again with more discomfort and pretty bad nausea. I thought I had come down with a stomach bug.

I had severe gas pain in my chest that I would have thought was a heart attack if I hadn't read about the phenomenon I was experiencing in all of my prior research. Food was stuck and air was trapped in my chest, and my stomach was producing mucus in an attempt to free the trapped food.

Again, you may want to skip these next parts, but I want to include it all for those of you considering getting the lap band. If you just read my blog because you think it's interesting and sometimes even humorous, you can skip the below.

I ended up vomiting quite a bit of mucus, and finally a tiny piece of pasta came up that had been stuck around my band. It was the item causing so much trauma. An hour and a half later, I was all set.

The worst part in all of this is that I made a giant meatsagna to freeze into individual pieces to take with me to work for a nice high protein lunch, and now it is going to waste.

Oh well, you live and learn!

This was the first time I could even tell I had a band, so at least I know it is there and my experiences are similar to the experiences of others.

I will be much more sensitive when I get my first fill in two weeks, so I will be winding down on the non lap band friendly foods that I have been able to eat in preparation for that.

Have a wonderful day!

KC

Me strong like bull

D and I did some great strength training yesterday. I am glad I am finally healed enough to work out my muscles because that is my favorite part of working out. I hate cardio.

I just did my legs and my back yesterday, so I will do my arms today.

We had my aunt and my cousin over for lunch, which was very nice!, and after that we went to Hampshire Hills to soak our old bones in a hot tub and go for a swim. It was fantastic!

I can't wait until Darce sets up the hot tub here. (hint, hint!)

We had a very full weekend, and we accomplished a lot! My energy level has definitely increased significantly, and I can't imagine what I'll be like at goal if this is what I'm like now.

Watch out!

The hometown phatties really came through for us this weekend in a BIG way!

Next stop: WORLD SERIES!!!

The pants that I was so excited to fit into about 3-4 weeks ago are now starting to slip off of me. I haven't weighed myself since last week, and I'm not sure when I'm going to again.

Feeling my clothes get bigger and working out and eating healthy small portions is working for me. If I were to get on the scale and see that I hadn't lost any weight, I may be unnecessarily discouraged. We'll see.

Have a great day!

KC